if the mothercat has only milk for one kitten the rest of them have to die. in my dream i tried to find something to save all of them but everything people advised me to do would kill them. knowing that, i ran from one place to another searching for an alternative. not accepting that there is nothing i can do. they were so small and weak in my hands. i could cover one kitten easely (and my hands are not big!). befor i could find milk to rescue them i woke up. so they probably starved.